So apparently I've done way too much complaining and being upset lately. Excuse me for uhm, what was that? Oh yeah, caring. Caring about someone, caring about myself, caring about feelings...caring about, uh, 'stuff in general'. Apparently that's not the smart thing to do, and I need to stop. Therefore it must be that I need to be one of those totally self centered people that what? Oh, gets talked shit about all the time for not caring. Hmm, this looks like a winning situation to me...

So, I suppose that I'm also wrong for trusting people until I have a reason not to. Apparently I do that backwards too, and I shouldn't trust anyone until I have a reason to. Hm, but if I do that, I'm apparently a 'cold person' or something like that. Man, pleasing people just doesn't work, does it? Maybe that's the problem is I'm not a hypocrite who changes who they are to make everyone think they like me. Hmm, oh well, I guess if you don't like me it's more your problem than it is mine...

So, I guess talking is good. No, I take that back. There is no guessing about it. I understand what has happened and I agree, for the first time in my life, that it needs to be changed. I can't continue to live by basing my happiness on the happiness of others. I guess 'anonymous' was right and I just didn't want to admit it. Neither did Jason. So, although I'm sure it will be a hard and painful experience, I am going to follow through on this, because, as was told to me, and I agree, it is mutually beneficial.

I guess that's that, eh? Oh, and Kellie, I know you told me so, so I guess you can say it...but just a few times.

Oh, and trying to draw in 3-d on a sheet of paper...damn near impossible. At least for me. I guess I don't have the artistic capabilities...or something like that.

So, it's the second day of school and I am already officially unhappy. Man, that didn't take long. I suppose it's my fault, at least partially, but still, it's only day two and already I feel as if I am spiraling downward. But I suppose what has to happen really does have to happen, for without the sour one can never appreciate the taste of the sweet. Only I have tasted the sour and appreciate the sweet, so how much longer must I pucker before I can feel sweet bliss once more?

Anyway, so having 1 class on Tuesday is pretty nice, unfortunately having like 50 billion (or 7) Mondays and Wednesdays...not so cool. Oh well, you win some you lose some. I guess I just do a lot of losing.

So I got back from NY today. It was fun, even if Jason says it wasn't. Snow isn't as cool to snowbirds as it is to me obviously. So I *kinda* learned to snowboard, which means I learned how to go down a little hill without falling TOO much.....but it was fun :D and so was sledding. And so was the snow in general. I wish I would have taken more pictures though... :/ oh well. So moving back in tomorrow...or today whatever...the 18th, yah. That's gonna be a pain in the ass. Kinda makes me wish I had some slav...errr people who would do work for me for free. Yah, so I met some of Jason's friends from NY, hehehe they're cool, now I see why he's so wacky though :P

So I went to wish my friend who is going into the navy this Tuesday goodbye. I think he is kinda ready to get the whole thing over with...or so he says, since he's been waiting since like May...yah, 5 years is a long time. LONG. TIME. But hopefully it will be worth it to him :) hmmm what else....not much of anything, just weeeeeeee fun-ness, but about to be over due to massive hours of work-ness...blah.

So the stupidity of some people amazes me. When they have to announce in an airport that the baggage claim is NOT FOR RIDING ON, there is a problem in society...

So let's see, so far my break has been pretty, err, breakless. I've been working 8 hours a day 6 days a week, but thats cool cuz I don't mind my job so much, and haven't really had any celebreations b/c I worked on all of the holidays...but I made the $ so it's all good. I got shot in the face with an artillery shell on New Year's Eve...totally not my fault. Let's see, what else...hmm...drank with my mom and her friends at the party she had, a few of my friends came :) been packing a bit for a few days...my sister erased my 40+ hours worth of Legaia (I wasn't so much the happy *scowl*) uhm, I worked some more, got a paycheck and pretty much gave it to my mom to pay her back for my plane ticket, hmmm, I guess things have been quite uneventful other than my "story of the day" nearly everyday from work. Weee, uneventful, I guess that's better than full of awful yet eventful things, eh?

So in 1 day and 10 hours I will be on a plane to NY...man, I can't wait. It's gonna be so fun :) and even if it's not it will be. So HAH! Hrm, I think I'm going to watch a movie...

So it's just over 4 days until I'm on my way to New York. Man, I'm so excited! Like excited to where I want to start packing now, hoping that will make it come faster...I know it won't, but still...so 2 more days of work then I won't be wiping asses and giving showers for awhile. And when I say awhile, I think that means like probably 3 or 4 weeks. Or something like that...

Anyway, so other than excitedness...

I saw Pirates of the Caribbean last night, it was pretty good! :) Johnny Depp always seems to be good at playing the weird ass roles in movies (*cough* Edward Scissorhands?) So I thought it was a pretty good movie.

Let's see, what else...uhm, I have a "story of the day" from pretty much every day I've worked over the break, old people are so quirky and weird :P especially dementia residents...man...but I think it's rewarding in its own way. Most people wouldn't see it I guess, but it makes me feel good. *shrug*

I hope everyone I haven't talked to is having a good break.